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Cubiis, productity myths, and The Squeeze

It’s been a long, cold winter, and I work a few days a week from home, so I’m inside at my desk a lot right now. When a friend told me she uses a Cubii whenever she works at her desk I went online to see about it (as one does).

The Cubii is one of many (many) under-desk elliptical and cycling trainers, ranging from about $150-$450 (if you don’t count the high-end ones). They claim to be small, silent, and easy enough to be peddled for exercise while one sits doing office work. The Cubii looks simple and convenient, though if I bought one it might join all of my other doo-dads I have bought over the years for simple and convenient exercise…now gathering dust.

Pedal trainers join many (many) other devices that are sold for exercise at one’s desk: isometric standing devices, standing desk mats with ridges for stretching, disc wobble cushions, gyro balls, and smart water bottles. I remember when at one time there was only the stabilizer ball that you sat on instead of a chair. Now you can buy an entire work station that doubles as exercise machinery.

Various people sitting on exercise balls at desks, a google image search
Various people sitting on exercise balls at desks, a google image search

Awhile ago I read an article by Eryk Salvaggio (2024), “Challenging the Myths of Generative AI”, that has stuck with me. The piece focuses on how, based on misunderstandings about how AI works, certain myths are shaping how we justify AI’s importance and reshaping how we think about ourselves and what we do.

For example, AI is widely regarded as useful because it is understood to save time. (Frequent users know this may not be true depending on how complex the task, how good one’s prompting skills are, and how critical one is about the output). The productivity myth underlying this valuation is the automation of work. If is AI is good because it saves time, then automating more of our work with AI is good because it will save more time. In this AI-infused workflow cycle, where saving time with AI is better than working without it, the automation of work itself becomes the preferred norm.

Put another way, has anyone encouraged using AI to help complete a task more slowly because that task is worth spending time on?

I just spent a bunch of time explaining that idea (thanks for sticking with me) because the productivity myth may take a related form in the world of desk exercise equipment. This equipment is sold as a healthy remedy for the harms of sedentary office work, but it also produces a new idea that exercising while working is good. We save time because we are doing both at once, but in doing so our relationships to work and exercise change.

In “optimizing” work time also as exercise time (or using exercise time to work) then neither work nor exercise needs to be (should be?) the single focus of our time. Whether we are effective working while exercising, or exercising in safe form or duration while working, is beside the point.

Of course, no one lives in this purely either/or world: you can use your Cubii at your desk and still go curling later in the day. And, not every minute of our work day is likely to suffer if we were to divide our attention with light exercise once in awhilr. For fidgety people like myself, physical activity of some sort might indeed promote increased focus during certain tasks.

Furthermore, if you want to exercise at work, you can certainly avoid commodifying it by passing on the costly exercise equipment and opting for brief stretching or body weight exercises. Most importantly, I am certainly not refusing the vast evidence that prolonged seated work is bad for one’s health.

But…in reviewing many review pages of Cubiis (and their first and second cousins) I began reflecting on how serving the myth of productivity means we may be more more likely to buy things that will help us to squeeze more out of our time without questioning the squeezing. When it is always better to optimize by going faster or doing two things at once, we may start to care less about what we are actually doing than how long it takes us to get to the next thing.

ADHD · fitness · goals · habits · health · motivation · planning · self care

Planuary is a state of mind

I’m pretty happy with how Planuary has gone this year.

I’ve managed to make some plans, test out a few ideas, and do some structured thinking about how I want to roll out some projects.

I haven’t actually taken a lot of action yet but actions are not the focus of Planuary anyway!

So, here are a few updates:

Journaling

Reflective journaling is going pretty well. I’m not getting to it daily yet but I am moving in that direction.

But if I don’t get to it in the morning, I need to find stronger ways to remind myself about it at other times of the day.

A dog is next to an e-reader on a bed in a dimly lit room. The device is glowing and lighting the dog’s face.
This photo of Khalee has nothing to do with my post but I thought it was funny because it looks like I interrupted her while she was reading. Image description: my dog, Khalee, is lying on her belly on my bed with her head raised. The room is dim and my ereader is glowing next to her, lighting the side of her face, and it kind of looks like she has turned from her book to look at the camera.

Yoga/Pushups

I did my yoga practice most days last week but my choices were hampered a bit by the fact that I woke up one day with a wonky knee.

So now I am working on my knee and my upper body and I am putting the ‘incorporate pushups’ part of the plan off for another week until my knee is less weird.

5 Extra Minutes of Movement

I have been doing pretty good with this one. I added 5 minutes of deliberate extra movement four out of seven days this week.

My knee is playing a role here but in two of those four days I chose extra seated movement so clearly it wasn’t the only factor on those other three days.

Maybe I need to say I will get 5 extra minutes of seated movement during the next week and see if that shift opens any mental doors to moving daily.

Next Steps

Since this is my last Tuesday post in January, this is technically my last Planuary post.

However, like the post title says, Planuary is a state of mind.

I want to keep this reflective, curious approach going throughout the year so I am figuring out what that practice might look like.

Last year, I decided that I didn’t really want to plan anything for the whole year, I just wanted to take it month by month and I’m sticking with that idea for 2025.

But I do want to keep checking in with myself and revisiting my ideas/plans/practices in a more structured but still Christine-friendly way.

So, I am starting with these questions:

How and when will I decided what is important for a given month?

How will I keep those things top of mind?

How will I record/reflect/track the details and feelings involved?

When and how will I write about them?

___________

Updates as events warrant. 😉

ADHD · fitness · health · self care

Christine’s Planuary: Part 2

So last week‘s Planuary post was very much about physical wellness- about how I’m going to add pushups and upper body yoga into my routine – and this week’s post is about mental wellness – how I am going to (re)implement a stress-reducing practice into my days.

Sidenote: I haven’t actually added the pushups and yoga into my day-to-day yet. Planuary is a deliberately slow process but I will let you know when and how I proceed with the pushup plan.

So my next part of Planuary is about reflection – reflective journaling to be precise.

A photo of a person’s hands writing in a journal.
This isn’t me, obviously. Their writing is tidy and their nail polish isn’t chipped. Image description: a person’s hands are shown writing in a coil-bound notebook. They are wearing a brown sweater and dark nail polish.

For over a year, I was doing long journal entries via voice dictation every day.

It was really useful for my brain and I found that processing everything aloud reduced my stress levels overall.

Then, I just kind of got out of the habit.

There were several reasons for that but the main one was tech-related.

I was using Google Docs for journaling but I use it for a lot of things and it got to be really annoying because it doesn’t have a good way to organize your files and my journal entries were popping up at times when I did not want to see them.

I tried switching to an app instead and while that was better for keeping my journal in one spot (and letting me choose when to see it instead of having it sprung on me), the app itself keeps crashing on my somewhat outdated phone. So, I would be chattering away to my journal and then discover that I hadn’t been recording for ages.

So I tried recording in Google Docs and then copying and pasting the entry into the other app but that made every journaling session a two-step process and my ADHD brain started protesting at the waste of time. (Yes, I know it was just a few seconds but sometimes my brain just won’t.)

Because of the ‘longer’ process, I started delaying my journaling time until later. (In this case, later is ‘the not now’ – a possibly fictional time in which the thing I am trying to do will be magically easier and hassle free. This is a common ADHD trap.)

And that turned into hardly journaling at all.

But I have been really missing the stress-reducing nature of the journaling process – especially when I can use voice dictation to process everything verbally.

So, I want to get back into the reflective journaling habit in a way that works with my brain instead of against it and here’s my plan for doing that:

  1. Record into Google Docs every day for a week and then cut and paste into the app with good organization. Sure, there will temporarily be a single journaling document with up to a week’s worth of reflection in it but I think I can live with that. Also, my brain is fine with a ‘every Friday we cut and paste’ kind of task even though it objects to doing that daily.
  2. Do my journaling as early in the day as possible. Journaling at night is never going to happen for me. I can do short entries but I don’t seem to get into the same rhythm at night and it doesn’t have the same stress-reducing effect. So, I’m going to turn on voice dictation for 10 minutes as soon as I can during the day.
  3. Keep a list of questions to ask myself. I don’t often get stuck for a journaling topic but I want to be prepared, just in case.

Unlike the pushups, I can and will start this practice right away.

As I was considering why I feel drawn back to reflective journaling, I realized that, not only did it help me to reduce my stress levels overall, it also used to help get my brain into ‘time to start work’ mode and anything that helps me with work-related task initiation is good for my mental health and for my overall well-being.

I’ll let you know how this goes!

fitness · health · racing · running · self care · training

You Can Run, But You Can’t Hide



By Alison Conway

A weary Alison crosses the finish line of the 2024 NYC Marathon

You can run, but you can’t hide—at least, not forever. Those demons that are chasing you? They will catch you eventually. One morning, injured or simply exhausted, you will wake up to find them sitting on your chest. Or, in the middle of a race, you may feel them jumping on your back, happy to catch a ride.

I’m talking, of course, about the demons of anxiety and depression or whatever other monsters might lurk in the deep recesses of your mind. Last week, Alex Hutchinson wrote a column in the Globe and Mail in which he reviewed findings about the links between exercise and mental wellness (12/2/24). It’s not news to those of us who feel lousy when we miss a run that a regular boost of dopamine is a good idea. But what happens when we look at the issue through the other end of the telescope? That is, what happens when we play the tape–that sport is therapy–to the end?


Jill Colangelo answers this question in a recent episode of Running Explained (Season 2, Episode 40). In her discussion of overtraining syndrome, she looks at the relationship that endurance athletes develop with their training programs and how increases in training volume correlate with higher, rather than lower, rates of mental illness. Is it cause or effect? Someone who is looking to cope with troubling thoughts may seek the solace of the runner’s high, or she may start to experience dread or anxiety about performance. Warning signs will begin to manifest in the body, and without an acceptance that sport is hurting, rather than helping, and that a recovery program, including therapy, may be in order, the athlete can find herself confronted with a full-blown breakdown. In this scenario, cortisol, not dopamine, is the drug coursing through the body.


Colangelo advocates for a deepened respect for the body and the signals it sends. Recently, I learned this lesson the hard way when I found myself in trouble 17 km into a marathon—not even half way! In the weeks leading up to the race, there were red flags. I had a summer injury that meant my build began a month late. I didn’t have enough long runs under my belt and not nearly enough hills for the gruelling course. More significantly, I had been dealing with stress all fall and it had given my body a beating. Sleepless nights made for lousy morning runs. My physio suggested that a weekend of back spasms was stress induced. The week of the marathon, I had stabbing chest pain. It wasn’t on my left side, so I assumed I wasn’t having a heart attack. But I was having a something. (It felt like a cracked rib. Later, when I told this to my doctor, he said, “Please, don’t run a marathon with chest pain without medical clearance!” I record his remark here as a PSA.)


November 3rd dawned bright, sunny, and cool. It was a perfect day for a marathon. The pain in my chest was there, but isolated to one spot. And so, I set out to race that course. What was I thinking? I was thinking, “The marathon is my happy place!” I was thinking, “My spring training will compensate for my crappy build!” I was thinking, “That half marathon six weeks ago felt great!” The marathon answered, “I take no prisoners.”

And so, I suffered. All the voices in my head formed a chorus of negative self-talk to make the final hour of that marathon perhaps the most hellish sixty minutes I’ve experienced as a runner. Somehow, I got myself to the finish line. When I finally found my people, I burst into tears of rage, pain, and disappointment.

And now? Now, I’ve had a chance to get over myself and remember that plenty of folks find themselves having a crap marathon for any number of reasons. I have also learned that when the body tells me it’s struggling, as I train, I had better listen closely and adjust my expectations.

Most immediately, it’s time to turn and face those demons.

Alison Conway lives and works in Kelowna, British Columbia, on the traditional and unceded territory of the Syilx Okanagan people.

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Hip Physio

Way back when I started seeing a physiotherapist, my biggest complaint was my knees. However, my shoulder that became a frozen shoulder and torn rotator cuff trumped the knee issues. But now that the shoulder is in good shape and I know how to keep it that way, we are finally returning to my knees.

Step one: assessment that confirms the crunching and grinding I hear when I bend is not normal. To do: book an appointment with my doctor to see about getting a proper assessment for arthritis.

Step two: test the muscles surrounding my knees to figure out what else is going on. The constant quad and IT band pain are also not normal, and they are impeding my ability to stand up unassisted, or even use the stairs comfortably.

Diagnosis so far? Quads that are massively overcompensating for my underperforming glutes. So tight, in fact, that my quads are pulling my kneecaps up and out of alignment. they are probably a significant factor in causing my bunions, too.

My immediate future looks like a lot of clamshells using a band, leg lifts slightly to the back to engage and strengthen my glute and hamstring muscles.

Not like this! Four images of Jane Fonda doing various leg lifts in the early 1970s, complete with skimpy body suit and leg warmers.

There will also sessions with a rolling pin, and just hanging around with my leg elevated behind me to stretch out those quads.

So far, my lifts are very tiny. Sometimes it feels like I am only thinking about lifting the leg, not moving at all. But my butt has definitely been engaged!

What do I hope to achieve? Deeper pliés in dance class, a decent flutter kick when swimming, and knees and feet that don’t hurt every time I move. Honestly, I would settle for the last two.

health · holiday fitness · meditation · mindfulness · yoga

Making Space 2024: December 1

Hey Team,

It’s December 1st and we’re back with the another edition of Making Space, a series of (mostly) short posts designed to encourage you to make a little space for yourself this month.

No matter what you celebrate (or don’t celebrate!), December is one of those months of ambient stress and busy-ness. There are so many posts and articles full of lists and ideas about how to do more, more, more, and so much discussion of finishing things before the end of the year, or getting ‘the most’ out of the rest of 2024, that it is enough to make your head spin.

Now, I am NOT pretending that you aren’t busy.

And I am not going to be doing any vaguely condescending posts about how if you *just* change your attitude then all the hecticness will just melt away.

Instead, I am going to acknowledge that we all have a lot going on at this point in the year AND I am going to invite you to make a little space for yourself in your days.

Each day, I will post a short exercise/physical activity video and a short meditation/mindfulness video that you can do if you WANT to.

If the videos I post don’t appeal to you, I hope that you will still create some space for yourself and pick something *YOU* like to do.

(Taking a nap, texting a friend, drinking a very slow cup of tea, lying on the floor staring at the ceiling – those all count as making space.)

Giving yourself that space is worthwhile and important, even if you have to ditch something else from your to do list.

So, with all of that said, let’s start on the right foot (ha!) with this short video ‘Foot Stretch for Healthy Feet‘ from Yoga with Bird.

A YouTube video of foot yoga – the still image shows a woman sitting on a yoga mat with her legs crossed and she is massaging her left foot with both hands.

And here’s 1 minute of drawing meditation/mindfulness from Tamara Michael. If you don’t have a pen and paper handy, you could draw with your finger or just breath in and out along with her drawing.

A YouTube video of a drawing meditation that shows a person’s hands drawing lines and dots on a white coil-bound sketchpad. They draw a squiggly line downward for breathing in and a series of dots next to that line for breathing out.

I hope you are able to make the space you need in your day.

Wishing you ease today and always. 💚

fitness · health · research

Research roundup: high-Intensity Interval Training

CW: mention of body size, appetite and weight loss in studies

Two recent studies have come out touting the benefits of HIIT, or high-intensity interval training, for women. One of them sounds great to me. The other, well, I’m not so sure about.

The first study– a nine-month community-based exercise program for lower-income older women in Brazil— showed several benefits to cardiovascular health for the participants. Here’s how it worked, according to this article from Agencia FAPESP:

The volunteers performed the exercise programs twice a week for nine months at four neighborhood community centers run by an NGO. Clinical status, anthropometric [waist circumference] measurements and specific health parameters (cardiovascular, functional, mobility etc.) were assessed before the first session (baseline), at the end of the nine-month intervention, and three months after that. 

HIIT combined with RT [resistance training] and moderate-intensity aerobic training combined with RT were equally efficacious in terms of reducing waist circumference (by 3.3 cm on average). This benefit persisted after the end of the training period. However, only HIIT combined with RT effectively lowered systolic blood pressure (7.9 mmHg) and reduced arterial stiffness (0.69 m/s), which remained so three months after the end of the training period. 

So, the big differences between HIIT and moderate-intensity training were the reduced blood pressure and arterial stiffness that they saw in the experimental group, both of them factors for lowered risk of cardiovascular disease.

But, is going hard okay for older people? Yes, say the researchers.

Previous studies by his group showed that HIIT has no risks for people with high blood pressure, obesity or diabetes, or indeed for clinical populations in general. “The protocol requires a prior assessment to confirm the absence of contraindications, such as a high risk of heart attack, for example. Generally speaking, it’s very safe,” Ciolac stressed.

Great!

Now to the second study, which measured the effects of HIIT (vs. moderate exercise and a control) on levels of ghrelin, a hormone that affects hunger. Eight males (average age 43) and six females (average age 32) underwent bouts of HIIT and moderate exercise after fasting overnight. Details below:

“We found that high-intensity exercise suppressed ghrelin levels more than moderate-intensity exercise,” explained lead author Kara Anderson, Ph.D., from the University of Virginia and the University of Virginia Health System in Charlottesville, Virginia. “In addition, we found that individuals felt ‘less hungry’ after high-intensity exercise compared to moderate-intensity exercise.”

Female [participants] had higher levels of total ghrelin at baseline compared with males, the study noted. However, only females demonstrated “significantly reduced AG”[a form of ghrelin] following the intense exercise, according to the findings.

What’s the upshot of those results? Well, here’s what one of the researchers says:

“Exercise should be thought of as a ‘drug,’ where the ‘dose’ should be customized based on an individual’s personal goals,” Anderson said. “Our research suggests that high-intensity exercise may be important for appetite suppression, which can be particularly useful as part of a weight loss program.”

Hmmm. I’m not so sure about that. Here are some reasons why:

  • The study was teeny-weeny: 14 people in total
  • The study measured hunger but not how much subjects actually ate after workouts (they didn’t provide meals either before or after exercising)
  • The BMI of the participants was similar (avg 22), but not necessarily the fitness levels, which could explain some differential effects
  • The study didn’t track weight over time– it wasn’t designed to– so we don’t know if their results would translate into weight loss
  • Why are we worrying about weight loss effects with HIIT? Isn’t it good enough that HIIT may be great for us in lots of other ways? Hmmmphf.

In case I was unclear above, here’s the thing: HIIT seems like a good option for exercise for lots of people in terms of cardiovascular benefits. Lots of studies are finding benefits for different age, body weight, and other demographic groups. Yay!

]And while it may be interesting and, in some contexts, useful to note the short-term hunger-suppressing patterns of HIIT on particular groups, that is not a reason to say it is a “drug” whose “dosage” can be used for weight-loss. In part because we know that exercise (of all types) provides loads and loads of benefits– physical, psychological, social, etc.- but doesn’t affect weight loss very much. Fine with me.

So, go big, go small, go around the block (with friends, dogs, kids, groceries), and rest sometimes, too. It’s all good for us.

Some women walking together– I can’t tell how fast they are going because it’s a picture. But it looks very nice.

ADHD · dogs · fitness · health · holidays · season transitions · Seasonal sadness · self care

Stubbornly Seeking Light

I’ve noticed that a lot more people in my neighbourhood have their holiday lights up early this year and it made me think of that saying – ‘If you can’t make your own serotonin, store bought is fine.‘

Usually I like to wait until December to put my lights up because I like that month to feel extra special but after a full month of rainy days, I need all the light I can get.

An early evening photo of a string of colourful lights on the railing of my (very damp) patio. There are leafless trees, a fence, and a streetlight in the background.

And today I realized that I’ve actually been choosing the (literally) brighter option whenever I can for the last few weeks. (Subconscious self care! I can’t believe my ADHD let me away with that.)

I picked a new desk lamp that gives me a wide swath of light for my desk on gloomy days (ugh) and at night.

A photo of my white desk with my lamp on. The lamp rises from behind my monitor and extends out on both sides casting bright light on my books, my art supplies, and the sewing project I’m working on at the moment.

I chose a new light-up leash for Khalee because the old yellow one didn’t light up anymore. It’s cheery AND it’s useful for walking in the early evening.

A photo of Khalee, my dog, doing a sniff-investigation on some grass on an early evening walk. Her blue light up leash is in the foreground and there is a streetlight nearby. There’s also a 40 speed limit sign but don’t worry we weren’t walking that fast.

And, in general, I have been making sure not to spend any extra time in the dark. There’s no need for me to be sitting in a dimly-lit room unless I choose to.

I know there are a lot of things I need to do to reduce my chances of being fully captured by seasonal depression* but I feel like finding more light – literally and metaphorically – is a good foundation.

Days that include more exercise, good quality sleep, hanging out with friends, and doing activities I enjoy can all be built on top of seeking light and that’s what I intend to do.

How are you dealing with the darker days lately?

Any fun ideas?

*I always struggle a bit but last year was especially bad and I am determined to help myself every single way I can this year.

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Halloween Horror for Health

As you read this, my Peglyte is chilling in the fridge, waiting for me to start the cleansing preparations for tomorrow’s colonoscopy.

The process is horrible. The liquid I need to drink tastes terrible and I need to take anti-nausea medication just to get most of it down.

The devil welcomes two people to hell, where their eternal punishment is colonoscopy prep. Source: cartoonstock.com

I will be thoroughly grumpy because I can’t eat all day so will go to dance class hungry. I’ll start drinking the liquid immediately after class. The big trick will be whether I can hand out treats to the kiddies.

I will not regret doing this no matter how unpleasant. Colon cancer is a horrible disease. Women are almost as likely to get it as men, though you would never know that by looking at internet images; almost all of them show men. And the risk increases with age, so do start doing the FIT test if you haven’t already, and follow up on your results..

Better colon health for everyone!

habits · health · self care

Optimistic October? I’m All In!

For all the challenges that my ADHD throws my way, there are some benefits that come from having this particular brain-wiring. 

For example, I enjoy making good use of my contextual thinking, I like the creative sparks and ideas that fly off in all directions, I’m happy with the string of connections that bring me to unusual solutions and, best of all, I like that my loose sense of time contributes to my hearty dose of optimism. 

That loose sense of time can present some difficulties – I take on too much, I can’t always tell how long things will take, and I can lose track of how long it has been since I last worked on a given project. 

BUT

That same flexible sense of time often means that, for me at least, it feels like there are a lot of possibilities open. I generally feel very optimistic that things will get better and that, even if I am having trouble right now, some future me will be better able to handle things.* 

Now, before you picture me decked out in red curls with a little dress just made for curtsying, I’m not Annie. I’m not over here brightsiding myself and other people and you will never catch me singing ‘The sun’ll come out tomorrow!’ at you when things are challenging. (I’m much more of a ‘Yes, that sucks. I’m sorry that’s happening to you. Do you need to vent or are you in solutions-mode?’ kind of person)

And when I say ‘I live in hope’, I never mean that I sit around *waiting* for things to improve, my optimism isn’t empty.  But my default setting is to assume that things will get better so I keep working in that direction. 

So when I say I’m all in for Optimistic October with Action for Happiness, I mean it.

An image of a multicoloured calendar for Optimistic October from Action for Happiness.
Image description: An image of a multicoloured calendar for Optimistic October from Action for Happiness with a tip for each day. The calendar blocks are in various shades of yellow, orange, pink, and red, with cartoon images around the edge. The image includes a small plant, a person on a hike, a book, a sneaker, a banana, an apple, and a very small person holding a huge sign with the image of the earth on it.

Optimism – believing in a positive future and taking steps to make that future happen- is a good strategy for feeling happier overall and I like how Action for Happiness makes it a bit easier to shift yourself towards optimistic thinking and a little extra happiness. 

I especially like how this month’s calendar starts out with the suggestion that you identify three things to look forward to. What a great way to practice optimism and to savour something fun in advance. 

Even though my base level of optimism is quite high, I will be trying the tips for Optimistic October. 

And I hope you’ll join me for whichever ones feel doable for you. I think your brain might like it!

Still image description: a video from the Action for Happiness YouTube channel. The video is called ‘Building Optimism and Hope: 3 top tips with Vanessa King.’ The still image shows King, a white-appearing woman with blonde hair cut in a shoulder-length bob, from the shoulders up. She is in a sunlit room with plants and flowers behind her.

*Yes, this sometimes backfires on me when it turns out that future me is the same as past me but I’m learning to figure out when it’s a good idea to assign something to future me and when it is better for current me to do it.