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(Guest Post) Resisting diet intimidation one cupcake at a time

by Martha Muzychka

It started as a trickle before Christmas, but the January avalanche of weight loss-focused articles, memes, cartoons, blog posts, twitter comments, Instagram shots and more is now in full throttle.

There are diets, cleanses, and a multitude of physical and dietary challenges on the go. You can make detox smoothies, clean eating wraps, and decadent treats of food-processed dates, bananas, and cooked grains. Or you can go dry and forgo all alcohol, take the eight week sugar detox and lose all forms of sugar including fruits, condiments, sodas, and drink, or eschew all manner of carbs and starches.

As I grew up Catholic, I’m familiar with periods of abstinence, none of course more known than the Lenten Fast. Shrove Tuesday’s pancakes were the excuse to use up all dairy, egg and butter available as the next 40 days you did without until Easter’s arrival. However, the food abstinence frenzy underway now until swimsuit season officially starts rivals most soccer riots.

Of course, as a Catholic, I also grew up learning St. Teresa of Avila’s famous exhortation: There are more tears shed over answered prayers than unanswered ones. I am pretty sure though, even St. Teresa herself would be horrified over the buckets of metaphorical tears shed over uneaten (and eaten) cupcakes and chocolates.

The attachment of morality to food continues to bother me. Sweets are bad, vegetables are good. Whole grains are good, unless, like quinoa, they exploit indigenous farmers, and then they are bad. Dairy is bad, butter is bad, eggs are bad, but if you are Paleo, then it’s all good, or if they are free range, happy cows and chickens, then they are good. Outrageously expensive, but good.

People who engage in food policing, body shaming, being food rude, getting all judge-y, or in your face about what you should or should not eat are everywhere. No, they aren’t knocking on the door of my house, but given their ubiquitous presence in traditional and social media – be it the magazine stands at the grocery store, the endless posts in my social network feeds, or the sly promotion of “lite” foods on television – they may as well be.

When I first started training, I would come home ravenous. I could, as many say here, “chew the leg off the lamb of God,” I was that hungry. But I learned that if I was going to put in the effort required at the gym, I would have to eat more than a slice of toast for breakfast and I could not meet my muscle rebuilding needs with a mere salad for lunch. While I had long given up on leading my New Year’s goals with a diet resolution, I could from time to time still feel the sting of judgment leaking through my mental dikes.

And if I who have learned to critique and take apart the pro-diet images and language still feel pressure, what is it like to be a young woman or girl, still growing into oneself and learning to wear the drape of confidence with aplomb? Are they armed or are they defenceless against the wiles of the diet industry? What other weapons should we give them?

As I look ahead to the new year and ponder my own fitness goals, I’ve been thinking about the ways we prepare to train: how we use stretches, or certain exercises to be warmed up; how we look at our nutrition needs on training days; how we work out how we move from one achievement to another to keep marking progress. And I wonder, should we start talking more in gyms about how we can resist effectively advice, pressure, and shaming about size, weight, and food choice?

Because I know I can walk into any gym on town this month and on the wall, someone will have weight loss as their big goal, or fewer “cheat” meals as their target, or a greater number of inches lost as their ideal rather than extending their cardio stamina, or increasing their deadlift weights, or learning a new routine.

And just once, I want to see someone write, “I will eat the damn cupcake, and I will enjoy it.”

Martha Muzychka is a writer and consultant who is getting her fit on through weight training. Along the way, she is rethinking what fitness means for her, and how she wants to achieve it.

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Guest Post · holidays

It’s easy to get lazy! Return to training during or after a cold? (Guest post)

Over the holidays I was hit by a pretty bad cold. 7 days straight of very high fever, sore throat, congestion, and coughing. My immune system is hyper-reactive and the nukes were out to destroy the bug. But it did not work this time. It lasted its full 10 days. And now beyond the 10 days I still feel somewhat congested.
Despite all signs, I went out running on day 5. Admittedly, I did not have any fever that morning and thought “That’s it, I am winning this!” This was a very slow run even if I felt like I was pushing. And at the end of the day I could tell by how I was feeling that it had been a mistake to go out. Did it extend my cold? Who knows. This is hard to say. And advice out there on whether one should run or train with a cold is sometimes contradictory. Most will say if you have fever, don’t. But unless one has a working and reliable thermometer (I don’t) it can be hard to tell (add to the mix the occasional hot flashes induced by peri-menopause and, voilà! Is it fever? Is it a hot flash?)
So after that 5th day outing, I waited another 4 days before engaging in any training. During that time, one wonders: am I just being lazy? Surely I could (should?) push myself and do it. When I did train, it was indoors because I was still somewhat feverish and did not feel like running outside in the wet cold. So I did weight training and leg exercises. I thought: “good plan! This won’t go against my less than optimal oxygen intake because of my congestion.” That was without thinking about muscular weakness caused by the cold. I don’t think I have ached like this in a very long time! I went out for a run the next day and pulled something in my thigh. Good job! But again, I was questioning whether I was just being lazy. It is so easy to get lazy, right? Stay warm inside and lounge on the couch, reading stuff and watching some TV (and doing work on the computer). One gets maybe too comfortable? So out I went to run a 7km!
But there are times when your body just needs to be lazy. It needs you to rest and fight what it has to fight. While you are reading, watching TV, killing time on Facebook, your body is hard at work fixing itself. It may be easy to get lazy but it may be necessary at times. This was one such time and I did not listen to my body.
Training is fun and exciting. I know I like it. But I have to learn to be patient with myself when I am sick and need my energy to fight whatever is assaulting me. Mostly, I have to shut up that narrative that makes me think I am just being lazy and should suck it up. I have to go back to working out in a way that does not throw me back into illness. This means a gradual return, testing the waters so to speak. So I need to be more patient with myself. Oh! And I also need to get myself a proper thermometer!

fitness · Guest Post · swimming · training · triathalon

Swimming to beat the heat (Guest post)

Mid-December I was struggling with the seemingly enormous task of returning to some semblance of my previous fitness level when I read here about Sam’s run streak. I thought it was a great idea and the concept of ‘little runs’ consistently is quite appealing.

I think on any day I could get myself out of the house to jog for a mile. Multiply that distance by 3 and all of a sudden I build a wall of expectations (too far, too slow, too tired) that create a barrier to getting out the door.

Backing up a little. I was cleared by my GP to return to exercise in August after a long hiatus. Starting slowly I began with regular sessions in the gym, returning to swimming when my local open air pool re-opened in October, occasionally cycling with a local club and becoming a semi-regular at my local ParkRun on Saturday morning.

My long term return-to-fitness goal is a long course triathlon. But for now, I was lost. Standing at the bottom of this fitness mountain looking up and trying to develop a program that would fit all my expectations and needs it was all a bit overwhelming.

My fears were exacerbated by the searing heat of the Adelaide summer. We have already had numerous spells over 40C degrees (104F) and can expect several days over 45C (114F). I am not a little person and I find I get distressed running and cycling in the heat (anything over 30 degrees really). In fact, just thinking about it makes me anxious. So all in all, I didn’t know where to begin. But I knew I wanted to start.

One morning, shortly after reading Sam’s post I was in the pool and I thought to myself. “I should break this down, I always work better with a plan. Breathe, is my stroke okay? Stretch that right arm out. Where was I? Oh yes. Break this down. Breathe on the left, oops, cough, ugh, I really have to work on that. Yes. Break this down. Breathe. I should remember think of this in more detail when I stop swimming.”

Swim-uary was born. My commitment is to swim every weekday in January and February 2016. Focussing on improving my swim technique and endurance through summer seemed like a pretty good idea when starting down the barrel of a scorching summer.

I joined up with a local training group and we have swim squad on Tuesday and Thursday mornings so that will give my fitness and technique a good kick. Most other days I hop in with a tentative aim to swim for 30 mins non-stop. Ultimately my goal here is to swim sub-30 minutes for 1500m. Like running a 6 minute kilometre, swimming 2 minutes per 100m is a benchmark for the also-swims among us.

But I’m not pushing for that every day. The first step each day is to get to the pool, get in and start swimming. In the first few minutes I check-in with how I am feeling. Some days I know that it will be a cruisy 30 minutes and I just enjoy it. Others I’m checking in each 5 minutes – am I still wanting to go on? And reminding myself it is okay to stop if I am tired.

Not setting a specific time, distance or even a program beyond “swim” or “get in the pool” takes the pressure off. On days where I’m just not feeling up to it I can play around and relax or work on something specific. Yesterday was one of those days, so I worked on my tumble turns. Maybe by the end of Swim-uary I will have them mastered? Maybe not.

Breaking my return to fitness down to something manageable has already helped. I no longer feel I am circling the bottom of that fitness mountain looking for the beginnings of the “best” path up. I’ve turned face-on and every day I take another step, however big or small, up.

I already have the next step in mind too – “Run like the win-ter” has a nice ring to it don’t you think?

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Counting down to spring cycling camp

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A cyclist friend shared this the other day. Training camp in ten weeks! (What’s training camp all about? See this post, Where’s my neon green bus with snacks?, for details.) Of course, it’s even closer now.

If you needed inspiration to hop on the trainer, that’s it right there. Also along with every other cyclist with mountains in their future I’m hoping to drop a bit of weight and make it to the top of that dreaded, but oh so beautiful, mountain.

I thought of South Carolina as flat but that’s until I got to area around Greenville. Turns out there’s a difference between the lowlands and the uplands. Turns out also we were riding around the latter. Here’s what it looks like. This is a photo of Caesars Head.

View of Table Rock from Caesar's Head

Competitive Cyclist magazine has this to say about Caesars Head.

And it’s George Hincapie’s favourite ride!

“Ask most cyclists in Greenville, South Carolina, what their favorite local ride is, and the answer you usually get is the Bakery Ride to Saluda, for sticky buns at the Wildflour Bakery. But George Hincapie says, “The climb isn’t hard enough. Plus, those sticky buns are like a thousand calories.” His favorite: Caesars Head, which has what he calls “one of the hardest climbs in the area.” The ride crosses part of the Mountain Bridge State Natural Area near the North Carolina border, then heads back over Paris Mountain. You start casually, pedaling out of Greenville and through the tree-lined mall of Furman University. After 15 minutes, Hincapie says, you’ll hit the rolling hills, rivers and old farms of South Carolina’s Upcountry, then the 6-mile Caesars Head climb, which averages about 7 percent. Just before the summit, at 3,266 feet, there’s a chocolate shop on the left. Hincapie skips it. But everyone should stop at the crest to gawk at Table Rock and the Blue Ridge Mountains. In mid-September to November, watch for migrating birds flying through the valley below. On the way back to Greenville, Hincapie takes a detour for more intervals up Paris Mountain. While his heart rate often averages around 130 bpm for the entire ride, he says he can hit 185 on the climbs. “Both climbs are really good gauges of my fitness,” he says.”

See more here.

Normally I like the descents but this one is a bit bumpy and technical for me. And after all the sweating on the way up, it’s also cold on the way down.  Less than ten weeks to go. And I’m counting them down. After that it’s all outdoor riding. Woo hoo!

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The Panopticon Revisited: Kitchen Mirrors for Self-Surveillance

 I hate tracking because it feels like the panopticon to me. I wrote about that a long while ago when we first started this blog. See my post here. The panopticon is a prison design that social-political philosopher Jeremy Bentham came up with in the 19th Century. The thing of it is, prisoners never know when they’re being watched. So they start to engage in self-surveillance and self-monitoring. They become so good at it that guards are hardly necessary.

Feminist philosophers have used this same idea to talk about the way normative feminity works. Always conscious of the possibility  that we are being watched and monitored, we women begin to do it ourselves. It’s basically the idea of keeping ourselves in line with rules imposed from the outside by internalizing those rules. Tracking feels like that to me.

But a new study that came out recently takes the panopticon metaphor to a whole new level, indeed, no longer even a metaphor. Maybe you’ve already heard. If you read the blog regularly you definitely have already heard because–and this is the beauty of having a team of feminists working together to respond to the latest research that does a disservice to women–Catherine blogged about it on Sunday. See her “Mirror, Mirror” post. 

If you want to eat less “bad” food (even though food is beyond good and evil), hang a mirror in the kitchen. Yes. You read that right. You can read more about the story in this story from The Washington Post and this one from The National Post. 

Apparently, watching ourselves eat food that we perceive to be bad, evil, or wrong to eat makes us feel crappy. We look for a reason and blame it on the chocolate cake.

This is just not something I can get behind. First of all, if you’re going to eat the cake, don’t you want to enjoy it? Do we really need to find further ways to feel shitty about ourselves?

Second, as if incessant tracking isn’t bad enough, now we are supposed to watch ourselves in the mirror too? It just feels so messed up.

Third, there’s the panopticon. It’s a bad thing, all that self-monitoring and self-surveillance to make sure we all into line with standards of behaviour that external norms impose on us. The panopticon is a prison design for Pete’s sake.  Its purpose in to promote compliance.

No, no, no. So please, let’s try to enjoy our food. Yes, let’s make choices. I’m all for thinking about how I may use food for all sorts of reasons that have little to do with keeping myself physically fed and nourished. Having some awareness is a good thing. But when we kick that to the level of self-surveillance and literally keeping an eye on ourselves so we behave, that’s a disturbing prospect worth resisting more than a piece of chocolate cake.

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Here’s an Idea: Body-Neutrality

  We hear a lot about loving your body and being body positive. But for some of us that’s just not an easy shift. 

But something more attainable, and certainly a step up from body hatred, is a neutral attitude towards our bodies. For me, I feel best when I’m neutral. Why? Because when I’m neutral I’m not passing judgement either way. It just is. 

I would rather just be comfortable in my skin than basking in my body’s awesomeness (which basking is not a likely scenario for me). I’ve just come back from two weeks of wearing a bikini every day. And I have to admit, I don’t find that the easiest thing to do. 

But I resisted the temptation to go for the tankini instead. I didn’t spend a lot of time obsessing about how I looked, but random thoughts of ‘too old’ and ‘too fat’ did pass through my mind. I didn’t let them stick around. 

My husband has a saying that I really like. Instead if “have a nice day” he says “have a day.” Good, bad, indifferent — a day is a day is a day. Why pressure people to have a nice day. Maybe that’s not a reasonable expectation all the time. 

So “have a day” takes that pressure and expectation off. That’s neutrality. We can be the same with bodies. I read a lot that tells us “love your body!” But maybe like every day can’t be a nice day, we can’t all be expected to love our bodies. 

But maybe, just maybe, we can stop lashing out at them with hateful thoughts of self-loathing. Just live in them neutrally, neither loving nor hating. 

By the end of my time on the boat I was kind of there. I threw a bikini on in the morning and went about my vacation. Easy, comfortable, neutral in my skin. 

If body-love comes easily to you, bravo! But if it doesn’t, if you feel the pull of negative judgments in that area, neutrality might be a more attainable goal. 

Have a day. 😐

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Exercising during recovery (Guest post)

footOver the last 10-15 years, I’ve been dealing with foot pain. The last three, since I started my highland games sport, have seen the pain increase exponentially. I don’t know if it’s the spinning, the cleats or both, but the pain has been unbearable. Highland games take several hours, so it’s a lot of time on my feet, and I typically would change shoes 3 or 4 times during the day. I’ve finally had surgery on both feet to break some bones and align my toes properly. The time off has been great as I was suffering from burnout from work as well.

It became apparent once the drugs started to wear off after surgery that my lack of movement was going to cause me problems. I’m moderately active normally, but lying in bed with my feet up and doing nothing was making it impossible to sleep, and sleep is something I’ve struggled with for a long time, so when I say impossible, I mean, awake for 36 hours impossible. The first few days I was incapable of doing much, so started working my chest, arms and shoulders with resistance bands, just a few minutes at a time, which was exhausting when drugged, later moving to walking around a bit in the stores to get out of the house and tire myself out. Since then I’ve been craving movement.

I googled exercise options and was disappointed with what I saw, so decided I just needed to be creative and modify workouts I know to accommodate my temporary abilities issues. It’s only been a few weeks since the surgery so still not able to do anything requiring balancing or feet. I’ve been in the gym bench pressing, and am back up to my pre-surgery personal best. I have been in the backyard doing (really) modified high intensity interval training, on a chair with a kettlebell and medicine ball and have started pilates, modified slightly as I can’t flex or point my toes, or have the top of my foot touching the floor due to pin placement. This might actually be a bit of a blessing as my workout has to be much better-rounded to accommodate the handicap.

Getting back into the workouts has really been helping me sleep, is relieving some boredom, is probably helping me to heal faster but is getting me pumped up in general about moving more and integrating a few more options into my normal routine.

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I love January! (Not really but I do kind of admire its intensity)

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I know you’re supposed to hate January but I kind of admire the intensity of this month. It’s the time of the year when I work the hardest.

It’s both back to school and new classes and for me, a countdown to spring and getting back on my bike. It’s a period of head down, working hard and getting ready. Training camp is just a bit more than two months away. I keep thinking of those hills. And after that, whatever the weather, it’s outdoor riding for me.

This isn’t a new year’s resolution kind of thing. I don’t make those. And it’s not about weight loss or about getting fit. Instead, for me, it’s part of the changing seasons of the cycling year. Not a “this year will be different” but more “this year will be like last year” with a little bit of “but better” thrown in with a hopeful smile.

In addition to riding with Chris, I’ll also be leading some training rides in Toronto for the Friends for Life Bike Rally. (You can sponsor me here. Please!)

(And yes, I know my avatar is running in a dress and heels. I forgot to change her clothes before sticking her on the template suggested for this season!)

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Happy New Year! The new year is a moving target after all…

I am not a maker of resolutions though I have no problem with others who find the practice motivational. You do you! Still, I can’t help but be amused by the moving target that is the new year whether it’s quitting smoking, daily exercise, or a new resolve to eat more healthfully that’s got your attention.

All that build up to January 1st and then the inevitable search for wiggle room.

You can’t start a diet/quit drinking/give up sweets January 1st. There are still parties to attend and left over Christmas goodies to eat. All those New Year’s Day social commitments. And for some of us, though not me and Tracy, hangovers. Who can run with a hangover? Really?

So it’s not January 1st that the New Me begins, really it’s January 2nd.

Except this year that was a Saturday. And who starts something new on the weekend? Nothing good happens on the weekend.

So lots of my social media friends have declared January 4th the new January 1st, the true start to the new year. After all, for many of you it’s the first day back to school and work and the regular routine.

Happy New Year! And best of luck with those resolutions because after this there’s no more wiggle room. It really is the new year now. And if you thought you’d blown it, relax, and join in with the wigglers.

January 4th is the new January 1st.

Enjoy!

fitness · weight loss

Mirror, mirror, on the wall—what’s the most fat-shaming science press story of them all? Maybe this one…

Everyone who reads this blog has surely noticed the usual new-year barrage of self-improvement media stories, focusing largely on dieting. Most of the time we can see them coming from a mile (1.6 kilometers) away, so we can steer clear.

Here’s one that had me (and Samantha and guest blogger Rebecca) extremely annoyed. The Washington Post released a story entitled “If you want to lose weight, eat that cake in front of a mirror.

What?

That’s right—the press is reporting on a new study that tested subjects eating both fruit and cake (separately) in front of mirrors, comparing them with subjects who ate the same foods with no mirror present. All subjects were asked to rate the tastiness of the food they ate after they finished. The fruit eating subjects reported no taste differences between the mirror and no-mirror cases. However, the cake eating subjects reported less tastiness of the cake when they ate it in front of a mirror.

Of course, the story is not that simple. It turns out that the effect happens only when the subjects perceive themselves to be eating something that is standardly considered unhealthy. And they themselves must be in general agreement with that standard. And they must see themselves as eating the perceived-as-unhealthy food by choice (also a complicated notion to unpack).

Nonetheless, both the researchers and the press coverage boldly conclude that maybe putting up mirrors in our houses (especially the kitchen) might keep us from eating unhealthy foods. And then we would lose weight.

Wow.

There’s so much wrong with both the press story and the study that I could write a 2000-word op-ed piece on it without breaking a sweat. And maybe I will. But for now, here are two thoughts (for which I must credit guest blogger Rebecca and her equally irate FB friends for their comments and ideas):

Thought one: This is very badly done science, covered in an irresponsible and sensationalist way by the press. There’s no evidence provided that finding some food less tasty will mean that you will eat less of it. None. Zero. Nada. So the press headline and the scholarly speculation in the article are totally bogus.

Thought two: The very idea that we should do science to figure out how to provoke people to lose weight by putting them in situations where eating food makes them feel bad about the food and, worse, about themselves, is horrid. Some people might respond and say, “but this is just science—we’re not making value judgments, just finding out connections. Others can use our results how they will—that’s not our responsibility.”

To that, I say, “that’s some bullshit”.

There are clearly values and priorities underlying all scientific research. What seems to underlie this type of work is using shame to trigger negative views about foods, hoping (but not establishing) that it will result in eating less and losing weight. But, 1) we have no idea whether and to what extent any of this would happen; and 2) being in a negative state of food shame can and does have lots of bad effects on people which compromise their well-being.

So shame on you, researchers and press. Go sit in the corner. And no dessert for you!