First things first!
Today is my mom‘s birthday and I hope that she gets all the treats and all the fun that she can possibly handle. Love you, Mom! 💚💚💚
Now, my post: for today:
Finishing Soft
A couple of years ago, after an exceptionally stressful year, I decided that rather than pushing hard to get a bunch of stuff done by the end of December, I would ‘finish soft’ – to try and find as many ways as possible to rest, to take care of myself, and to reduce the sense of overwhelm that usually took over the end of my years.
And I was happy with how that turned out.
Ever since then, I have been returning to that idea of that softness whenever possible.
Obviously, there are times when hard work is required and there are times when I don’t realize how tangled up in doing I have gotten until something goes awry.
But I am happy to say that since those posts linked above I am quicker to get back to the idea of going easy on myself, of finding a simpler way, of seeking more rest when I need/want it.
And after so many years of my ADHD brain churning out inaccurate information about ‘not trying hard enough’ and ‘gotta do all of the things before you rest’, it has been really helpful to have a shorter loop back to taking good care of myself.*
Slowing Down
Last week, I posted about my December Twelves – three things that I am going to do twelve times this month to help me feel more relaxed – but when I was writing it, I didn’t think about the connection to finishing soft.
It is part and parcel of the same thing, though, the strong pull towards rest, the sense of wintering**, knowing that slowing down and being more deliberate in how I spend my time would be good for me.
I still have a lot to do and I have still had a lot of hectic moments lately but I feel differently about them. They feel less inevitable and more temporary – I feel like I can take charge of my circumstances a bit more.
And, strangely, I am finding myself able to think a bit more about January.

Planning Planuary? Really?
Usually, my ADHD will let me imagine my time up until around Christmas but beyond that there is just the murky idea that January will indeed happen. In fact, I decided to start referring to January as Planuary because that’s generally the earliest that my brain will consider making plans for the year ahead.
This year, though, I have been lightly drawn to the idea of planning a few small things to happen in January so I can be planning my year AND doing interesting things in the same time frame.
I don’t think this has ever happened to me before.
I mean, I used to feel the pressure to plan the whole year ahead in December (and feel terrible when I failed to do so) but I don’t remember ever having this clear idea that I could just pick a few things in December to put in place for January.
More Movement? Interesting!
And, interestingly, while I had thought that doing yoga would feel like ‘enough’ exercise for right now, instead I am finding myself craving more movement. My muscles seem to be saying, ‘That was a good start! What’s next!’
So, I am adding bits of extra cardio and strength training and mobility here and there. With no definite plan and no specific outcome in mind, I’m just responding to my body’s interest in moving more.
Making Space
As you probably know, I’ve been writing Making Space posts all this month and while I have been trying to follow my own advice and make a little space for myself each day, I didn’t realize that the process of slowing down over all was making even more space in my head and my sense of time.
Even though I…
- consciously decided to actively slow down by journaling, meditating, and doing yoga.
- consciously decided not to undertake any big projects around the house.
- consciously decided not to put any pressure on myself about work projects (In other years I have sometimes decided to speed up timelines to have loose ends tied up before the holidays but I voted no this time.)
I am still surprised by the mental space that has created and, somehow, I am surprised to discover that that space has allowed me to think clearly and think further into the future.
Now the question becomes – how do I help myself continue this approach?
*I feel a bit weird about saying all of this in the context of having struggled with whiplash for months without realizing it but even in the midst of the challenges I was facing there, I was still trying to go easy on myself. It kind of feels like a contradiction but I don’t really think it is.
** Katherine May has a great book called Wintering and Anne-Laure LeCunff has a quick and useful article about the practice, and Sheridan Voysey has a lovely reflection about it, too.
