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Aimée crosses a line (Guest post)

by Aimée Morrison

My half-marathon is in two weeks. I hit peak training mileage and intensity and the onset of summer heat at the same time. Naturally, my hydration and fuel strategy fell apart, and I had to buy a fuel belt, which is something I swore I would never do, but here I am. I’m thinking about why this has me so freaked out. Because I’m pretty freaked out.

The precipitating incident was last Sunday’s long run. My training group ran 20km and it was remarkably hot, all of sudden. Now, I had pretty easily run the same 20km the week before, and all the other runs before that. What happened this past Sunday, though, was: I didn’t have enough water in my tiny handheld bottle to compensate for the all the extra sweating the heat entailed, never mind the extra distance as we kept adding kilometers week after week. I also lost all my hunger cues because that’s what heat does to me and so I forgot to keep nibbling on my carb-and-chocolate baked bites that are my go-to run fuel. I also lost the pockets where I stashed these little snacks because I was now running without a jacket, so I hadn’t brought enough of them in any case. I just completely failed to hydrate and fuel anywhere near enough. I bonked at 18.5 km, and I had to stagger-walk the last 1.5km.

Which is how I found myself at the Running Room the next day, staring at a wall of bottles and bags and belts and bladders and cringing. I bought gels and reconciled myself to paste-food instead of solids. I bought a belt. It’s got a zip pouch for my phone, a quick-grab strap system for gels, and two-quick draw holsters from which I can quickly extract either of two fluorescent yellow 10oz water bottles. It’s got a non-slip strap that doesn’t bounce around on my hips, and a spot I can stash Kleenexes. It’s a fancy and expensive fanny pack, basically. I hated it on sight.

Well. Guess what? I’ve worn it out for my last three runs, and now I love it. It turns out that a steady stream of water and gels does keep me feeling strong through my whole run, and prevents me from feeling like trash in the hours afterwards. But I still feel really cringe-y about other people seeing me in it.

The thing is, I think I look like a jackass, some cross between a soccer mom with a purse full of snacks, a norm-core 90s dad, and some kind of ridiculously self-important non-athlete with more money than muscle endurance. Yeah: full on imposter syndrome, rooted in some pretty judgey thinking about soccer moms and 90s dads, and probably some worries that I now look exactly like all those other middle-aged fanny-packed women runners out there in their tech gear chugging along the Sunday sidewalks in their groups. It’s great that 25 year old me used to roll my eyes at those women in their sun-visors but I should rethink this practice at 45, when I am now clearly also a middle-aged woman with a whole hat rack of sun visors (so practical!) chugging along the Sunday trails with my group. It would be best if I could not reflexively hate myself for occasionally looking like … what I am. Ah, internalized ageism.

At the same time, I am kind of amazed at myself. How did I get here? This person with electrolyte sports drink in the left holster and water in the right? With gels on my hip that I greedily squeeze down my throat when I’m stopped at lights? But then I doubt myself: I’m just keeping a 7min/km pace—with walk breaks!—for a couple of hours in the middle of the city, not racing across the Sahara. Who do I think I am?

Increasingly, I answer myself firmly: I am a runner, putting in 35-45 km per week, across five days a week, doing hills, doing sprints, running big distances over long hours, in groups, with my husband, by myself. On my bonk run, my FitBit indicated I had burned something like 1350 calories over those 20km. I am very much entitled to my Endurance Tap energy gels and my electrolyte drinks. I am a pale and scrawny middle-aged woman with strong looking legs and a weak looking chin. I wear a fuel belt. I am an athlete.

You need a gel? I’ve got some extra, here in my fanny pack.

Aimée Morrison is on sabbatical from professoring in new media studies in 2018 and trying to achieve some healthy ratio of words-written to miles-run. She’ll run her first half marathon in Ottawa on May 27. With the help of 4 Endurance Tap packs, one bottle of electrolyte replacement, and one bottle of water, she finished this week’s 20km run in record time and without bonking, not even a little.

8 thoughts on “Aimée crosses a line (Guest post)

  1. Great piece, Aimee — you look terrific ;-). Also Ottawa was my first marathon — it’s a gentle course lined with lovely people — have a great time!

  2. I’m at the point in my life where I don’t give a hoot about stuff like that. I don’t like my gear belt but it’s because I just don’t want to wear it, not because of how I look in it. Now that it’s warm and I’m doing longer runs, I need the belt and the accompanying yellow water bottles.

  3. Great post Aimée and good luck with your half marathon! Just being able to do that is totally amazing and admiration-worthy – who cares about the belt! On the practical side, how do you prevent it from bouncing? I wore a (less fancy, no water bottles) belt for a while to hold my keys and phone and it always bounced, which was incredibly annoying! I must have been doing something wrong?

    1. This is the hard thing for me! I have a high hip-to-waist ratio and the bounce is real. I went for a belt that had minimal elasticity to it. I find the elastic makes everything more bouncy. It’s a thick belt, and with the water fully loaded it’s pretty heavy. If I wear it so that the water bottles are against my hip bones, it’s low enough toward my centre of gravity that movement is less likely (that is, exactly at the low part of the hip crests is where your body moves the least while you run). There’s a grippy-bit on the inside part of the belt which keeps it from sliding, which also helps. Oh yeah! And I was advised to drink the bottles alternating sips so that they stay roughly equally full, because otherwise the belt is unbalanced and it will spin in circles around your waist. Good luck!

      1. I’m the same as you, high waist-to-hip ratio! I can see how the minimal elasticity would be key. Mine has an elastic belt, so no matter how tight I pulled it, it would still bounce around. I don’t run long enough distances that would warrant a water bottle, but if I ever do, I’ll look for a belt with a less elastic band. Thanks!

  4. I also have the rotating belt issue when carrying water bottles. I use a large binder clip to lock the belt to my shorts. End of problem. Also consider a handheld bottle that straps onto the hand if you don’t like the weight on the hips. Mine includes a small pouch for a Gu and/or salt tablets. Very handy.

  5. Hilarious and awesome. I have a weird belt and feel one day I need to crossover to those 2 liter ones that you can drink without removing from the holster.

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