motivation

I Did It! Reflections on Achieving What Once Seemed Impossible

possible_imageOn Sunday morning I ventured out with two other women, Anita, whom I’m training for a half marathon with, and Julie, whom I know from my 10K training group last winter and who is now in Anita’s half marathon group at the Running Room.

The run was an LSD–short for “long, slow distance”–20K at a leisurely pace with 10-1 run-walk intervals. We committed to a pace that was supremely conversational.

That meant 2.5 hours of chat.  Within the first breezy, chilly 5K of the morning, Julie told us about a friend who completed an Ironman this summer. So impressive!  Hardly imaginable. “But she always knocks herself down by saying she finished near to last,” Julie said.

You know how sometimes you hear a thing and it makes something in your head go “click”?  I heard myself in Julie’s friend.  Not the Ironman part. The part about knocking myself down.

I ran a 10K race!  But I could have done it faster.

I did an Olympic distance triathlon! But I almost came in last.

Even though I tried to be positive whenever I blogged about my races over the past little while, and I always ended on an upnote about how “at least” I did it, I’ve never truly allowed myself to soak in the magnitude of my physical accomplishments over the past little while.

The closest I got was my birthday post, where I talked about how far I’ve come since we started the blog. But I don’t think even there that I fully appreciated what the two Olympic distance triathlons actually mean for me.

It’s not about where I placed. It’s about finishing what I started.

Here’s some perspective:  Sam re-posted my first 5K race report from two years ago (October 2013).  The day I did that 5K, 5K was the longest I’d ever done! I felt nervous as hell–and the race didn’t even have timing chips!  I’d been running less than a year and the very thought of ever doing triathlon was about as remote the possibility that I may one day climb Everest (ZERO–no desire and I don’t understand why people do that).

When I dipped my toe into triathlon with my first Kincardine Women’s Triathlon in the summer of 2013, it lit a fire in me, but Olympic distance?  Impossible.

But that impossible goal supplanted my pre-triathlon fittest by 50 goal of running a half marathon. I re-jigged my training, started swimming with a coach, and even joined a triathlon club.

Before the snow from our polar vortex winter of 2014 melted, the impossible began to come into view.  I told my coach that was the distance I wanted to train for. I made public declarations about my intention.

When I was at my computer, instead of working, or even procrastinating from work on Facebook, I read and re-read websites detailing the summer events within driving distance of London.

By the time the first flowers of spring were in bloom, I’d committed to Bracebridge in August and Lakeside in September. For me, paying the money meant no turning back.

I trained.  And trained. And trained. I hauled myself out of bed for 6 a.m. swims in Sharon’s Creek.  I forced myself to ride the road bike (here is where I would normally add in some kind of complaint about how much I detested it and how little progress I made, but I refuse to go there today). I ran as early as possible to avoid the heat of the day.  Once, I came home from work at noon and did a brick workout to test my capacity to run in the noon heat just in case I ever happened to be doing that on race day (and I did, in Bracebridge).

So that’s triathlon. And I’m feeling awesome that I did it.

About running.  Back in the spring when I did the 10K in the Forest City Road Race, I watched the half marathoners with awe.  It seemed unfathomable to me that anyone would be able to complete 21K.

Then, after a little coaxing from my friend, Anita, the goal just didn’t seem all that out of reach.  She wanted someone to run the Toronto Waterfront Half with her on October 19th. I checked my calendar.  Available. I signed up (remember: once I pay, I’m there!).

With just over a month between the Lakeside Olympic distance and the Toronto half, I had a month to shift my attention to running. I love the long chatty runs. But a couple of weekends in a row I had to do long ones — 18K — by myself. And I did.

Which brings me to last Sunday, on our leisurely 20K, chatting and watching our pace and logging the distance one step at a time.  What once seemed impossible had the character of an unhurried coffee date with friends. Yes. 20K. Like going for coffee.

I’m really liking this thing–this thing of doing the impossible.

What have you done that once seemed impossible?  I’d love to hear about it! If you can’t think of something, how about making a decision to work towards a new, seemingly impossible goal?

You’ll feel kind of pumped once you do it.

 

 

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My weekend on two wheels: A study in contrasts, from Tweed to Century

I like lots of different kinds of riding and my weekend featured three very different rides. (On this theme see Riding slow and riding fast and It takes all kinds.)

On Saturday mornings, bright and early, I’ve been riding with Natalie and some other friends, including Tracy. See My First Group Ride for Natalie’s account of our first trip. This week included me and Dave–the randonneur--and Nat’s partner M. It was cold–below 10 degrees celsius when we set out–and wet and windy too. The downside of autumn riding about which I’m usually very enthusiastic.

It warmed up quickly, we did too, and we ended at our usual coffee and muffin/scone stop. It did feature a nasty tumble. Poor Nat rode over some wet leaves, but I’ll leave that story for her to tell you. I suspect there’s a guest post in progress!

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Then it was home for a bit of work and a quick wardrobe change. It was time for London’s 1st annual TWEED ride. About 100 people turned out on a cold afternoon for a ride in historic costume, and for some people on historic bikes. Fun times. There are some great photos here. What’s a Tweed Ride? See here.

So far the theme of the weekend had been social riding. Nothing too fast, far, or furious.

That changed Sunday morning with the MEC London Century Ride.

Be part of the first MEC London Century Ride! This is a one day road cycling adventure on an open course for people who are passionate about their active lifestyles.
Choose from a beautiful 60k or 100KM route that takes you on the quiet rural roads of the scenic Elgin County visiting both Port Stanley and Port Bruce along the way. The event starts and finishes at Railway City Brewery. There will be marshals and directional signs along the course, as well as a rest stop midway complete with replenishments, washrooms, and a bike mechanic for minor repairs. The staggered start will begin at 9:00AM and close at 9:30AM. Upon finishing, celebrate your accomplishment with food, drink and the camaraderie of other riders at the brewery.

100 km, fine. Beautiful views of Lake Erie, fine. Fall colours, just lovely. The event was also extremely affordable, just $35, lots less than the Gran Fondo style pricing. It started in St. Thomas and everything seemed super well organized. The route was well marked, there were people cheering us on along the way, and everything was peachy keen but for the weather. I could have handled the cold. I have the gear and I dressed for it. But the wind? There’s no way to dress for wind.

The MEC emails and announcers kept stumbling over the ride/race terminology. It wasn’t a race but it was timed. I think the race language comes from the fact that they usually organize running events, all races.

Though it wasn’t a race we planned to ride it fast. I went to the event with two friends, randonneur Dave and David, with whom I did the MS Bike Tour, the Friends for Life Bike Rally and most recently, the Epic Tour. At the Halton Epic Tour David, Kim, and I averaged over 25 km/hr even with the hills. This had fewer hills and I had hoped for an average closer to 30.

Even with a couple of quick restroom breaks it seemed doable in under four hours. In the end though, it was not.

Dave did his own ride, randonneur style. Even on his fixed gear steel frame bike, he’s faster than us.

You can view my Strava file here.

David and I had a great start to our ride but the last 30 km were straight into the worst headwind I’ve experienced. It was, as my friend Dave called it, an exercise in humility. I’ve never worked so hard to maintain 20 km/hr and at times we settled for less than that. Heart rate 155, speed 21 km/hr. How can that be?

For some of the stretches I was checking my Garmin almost every kilometre to see what progress we’d made. On the bright side David and I worked together, took turns at the front, and counted down the distance as a team. We worked with a nice rider from Stratford until the hill at the misnamed Pleasant Valley took me out. There was nothing pleasant about the hill out of that valley. I made it up the hill but had to rest for a few minutes at the top.

Anyway, tough slog back but good ride and I’m glad I did it. Certainly I hope MEC organizes more rides. I had talked to some beginning cyclist friends about this ride but I’m glad they opted out. I don’t think it would have been a great experience.

What are the differences between the rides I did this weekend? Obviously speed and distance but not just that. I think the big differences come down to preparation and effort.

Preparation: I left for the Saturday morning social ride with my phone and coffee money. That’s it. The Tweed Ride required some outfit preparation. The challenge there was fashion related. Bike shorts under my dress, tights under spd cycling sandals. I couldn’t go for an actual period costume. I even took the belt off my tweed coat so it wouldn’t get caught my chain. I struggled with trying to get my hat on over my helmet but in end I opted for the helmet when riding, hat when not. The MEC ride involved thinking about food. Thanks Dave for the inspired suggestion of baklava for an en route, eat while riding, snack. I also made sure I got a good sleep the night before, packed my helmet and shoes, gloves, and cycling sunglasses to take with me in the car. I put gas in the car and Jeff put the bike rack on for us.

Effort: Here there are huge differences. Strava, the online cycling tracking tool I use, gives rides a Suffer Score based on information from your heart rate monitor. The Sat morning social ride got a mere 13, 94% in zone 1, no suffering. The MEC Century got a suffer score of Extreme, 163. Most of my time in zone 3 with some time, more than I’d like, in Zone 4. That was partly hills out of Port Stanley and Port Burwell but much more than that, the wind. In the past I’ve claimed to prefer wind to hills but today’s ride is making me reconsider.

The three rides were very very different from one another but I enjoyed them all. It can be hard to ride slowly on my own and my current training program has some lower heart rate rides built in. But help a friend who is a beginning rider and chat with people I really like, and voila, multiple goals met.

Basically, I just love time on my bike. But you know that.

 

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Ready for the Tweed Ride! Don’t worry. I swapped my hat for the helmet before set off on wheels.
cycling · injury

Reflections on Bikes and Brains

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Recently I had the honour to be a speaker at an event designed to raise awareness about brain injuries and bike safety, Bikes ‘n Brains: Bike Safety & Brain Injury Awareness & Prevention Ride & Symposium. The evening included both a bike ride and  speakers. The force of nature behind the the event was Joy Cameron.

The event marked the one year anniversary of a crash that changed Joy Cameron’s life. You can read more about that here.

“Motivational speaker Joy Cameron doesn’t remember being struck by a car while cycling on Sarnia Road last year, but some of the details are difficult to forget. The collision happened almost exactly one year ago, for example, on September 26, 2013. Joy said she was cycling at night and was told afterwards a vehicle struck her travelling at about 60 km/h. Cameron said she had lights on her bike and was wearing a helmet, which perhaps saved her life.”

I loved the community bike ride which I thought was a super touch. I am hoping that next year Joy will be well enough to take part in both the ride and presiding over the speaking part of the night.  This year she didn’t think her still recovering brain could do both even though she is back on her bike at other times.

My remarks focused on the history of women’s cycling, on why bike friendly cities have a higher percent of women riding, and why it matters for everyone that we get more women on their bikes.  Short version: the biggest factor that affects safe cycling is the overall number of people riding. See Tracy’s post  women unite, take back the bike. The other speaker focused on recovering from brain injuries. He was Jamie Fairles, a brain injury survivor and a peer support co-ordinator at the Brain Injury Association of London and Region.

Thanks to Debra Franke and Sam Boyce for the photos below. You can see more photos on Joy’s Facebook page.

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Guest Post · running

Part One: Running with Dogs and Failing (Guest Post)

Mulligan, happy and covered with duckweed after hunting for frogs, an activity he prefers to running.
Mulligan, happy and covered with duckweed after hunting for frogs, an activity he prefers to running.

I have been a runner for sixteen years. When I adopted my first puppy from the humane association, I had grand, romantic visions of running side-by-side with my new best friend, a big wonderful dog. I mostly had visions of people leaving us alone to run in peace. In every place I’ve lived, I’ve been harassed while running. I’ve been cat-called, mocked, propositioned for sex, chased, groped, and had bottles thrown at me. Surely a big wonderful dog would be a buffer against such horrid behavior. I was sure the Pointer/Labrador Retriever mix I’d brought home would be that big wonderful dog and we’d run many miles in peaceful bliss. I named him Mulligan.

When he was old enough, we tried running. I naively thought that running would be easy. Dogs love to run, right? I was wrong. He’d run with me for fifty meters or so and then try to play tug with his leash or stop to sniff. Once, we made it almost a full three minutes of continuous running when Mulligan leapt in front of me to sniff something. I accidentally kneed him in the ribs as I toppled over him, skinning my hands, arms, and legs on the sidewalk. Mulligan was confused, scared, and bruised. I had gravel stuck in my palms for a week.

I’ve learned a lot since then. And, we added two more dogs to our active household. Sharing athletic endeavors with a dog can be wonderfully rewarding. But, they should be undertaken with care. Running successfully with a dog is a learned skill, for both you and your dog. I’ve witnessed people getting it wrong, sometimes even endangering themselves, their dogs, and others in the process. I’ve even been guilty of getting it wrong myself.

Is Running a Good Fit for You and Your Dog?

Make sure your dog is old enough and fit enough for rigorous physical activity. Your veterinarian can give your dog an orthopedic exam to identify any physical problems.

Know your dog’s activity preferences. Just as one form of exercise might suit you, but not your friend, one activity might suit one dog, but not another. Your dog’s preferences depend upon breed and physical characteristics, prior experiences, and your ability to manage their present experiences.

It turned out that Mulligan, a blend of two hunting breeds, much preferred scenting around the neighborhood, nose to the ground, with the occasional sprint or game of tug, than running at a steady pace. He found running to be boring. He missed out on all the things he was galloping past: the smells, the sights, and the textures.

But, it was more than that he was bored. He was also worried.

This is where I most profoundly failed my dog, Mulligan. In any activity you undertake with your dog, you must pay attention to your dog’s well-being by regularly asking these two questions:

  • Is my dog feeling safe?
  • Is my dog having fun?

Your dog may be technically safe in a situation, but what’s more important is whether your dog FEELS safe.

Mulligan was worried about all kinds of things in the environments where we ran: the trashcans that magically appeared on the curbs on Thursdays, loud traffic, parking meters, flags, and awnings. Awnings loomed over Mulligan, their fringes gently waving without reason. Once, he bolted into traffic to escape an awning, dragging me fifteen feet on the asphalt and dislocating my shoulder. Thankfully, he was not hurt.

Mulligan did not feel safe, and he certainly was NOT having fun. Here was a dog who paid meticulous attention to his environment. Everything in his world has to be methodically considered and assessed. Instead of supporting him, I’d rushed him, forcing him to go where I wanted to go, at the speed I dictated. He trusted me to keep him safe from all the bad things and I’d failed him.

Mulligan and I don’t run anymore. But our relationship has healed. We embraced a science-based, force-free training program that incorporated desensitization and counter-conditioning to help him be less worried. You can learn more about this kind of training at fearfuldogs.com. We hike, we walk, we play games, and we explore. Though we might sprint out of sheer joy every now and then, we don’t really run.

I finally found my canine running companion in the most unlikely dog: a rescued Chihuahua name Paloma. Seriously, a Chihuahua. More on that adventure in my next post.

Joan G. Forry earned her Ph.D. in Philosophy from Temple University in 2008. She is an independent applied ethicist who writes about feminism, sports ethics, and animal ethics. Her current work in animal ethics is concerned with how humans develop meaningful and mindful relationships with dogs. She is an amateur dog trainer who aspires to go pro someday. She documents the travels of her dog, Miles, at www.facebook.com/milesonhydrants.

Aikido · cycling

Bikido! This weird thing I’ve been doing lately

I’ve started doing an organized weekly ride with a coach and a group of athletes he trains. So far it’s been all women which is lovely. Speedier than my usual rides with friends. Fun.

We ride 40 km with a sprint thrown in at the end. Bonus fun. I love to sprint. Even though the town sign we’re sprinting for is up a small hill. Ouch.

But it’s Thursday evenings. Usually I do the advanced belt Aikido class on Thursdays and I’ve been reluctant to give that up. I’m one of the few green belts who has been invited to train with the blacks and browns. It’s an honour and I learn a lot.

To my surprise three weeks in a row now I’ve gone straight from the ride to Aikido. I’ve been arriving close to 7 pm, parking my bike in the dojo, and quickly throwing on my white pajamas over cycling gear.

There have been some glitches in packing for such a long day: lunch, dinner, and extra food because, well, cycling. But I’ve been good at remembering lights for my bike and glasses, other than my sunglasses, to ride home with.

My ability to do this, when I add in my commute and ride to the ride, about 65 km total, some of it speedy, is surprising me. It’s new.

It used to be that riding fast meant I was done after. Done, done, done. Now it appears I can do more. There’s no Aikido + bike duathlons, shame really, but if there were, I’m your woman. And this woman is feeling pretty fit for fifty.

Admittedly after it’s straight to the hot tub and sometimes second dinner after that.

I’ve even started riding Saturday mornings too, before two hours of Aikido, since the the Thursday combo is going so well. The Saturday rides are slower, more social, and they end in coffee and cake. See Natalie’s post about our first one.

Interestingly I’m not the only cycling plus Aikido fan out there. In my browsing, I found another fitness blogger who is all about cycling, running, Aikido, and more. His blog is called Run Bike Throw.

I know the whole “keep calm and…” thing has totally jumped the shark but I like that this appeared in an image search for bike aikido!

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body image · Crossfit · media

Does one of the fittest women in the world need Photoshop?

Box Magazine thinks so.

See the discussion on reddit, Box Magazine clearly photo shopped Camille’s stomach.

To the question, who cares, one commentator on reddit replied,

“They did the same thing to Annie last year. This isn’t ‘retouching’. Retouching is removing a blemish or shadow, straightening a line on clothes, or removing stray hairs. THIS is removing body parts.

“Who the hell cares?” Well. For Camille, she’s a strong, athletic woman. That should be celebrated, and it isn’t. Even in the magazine that dedicates itself to crossfitters she’s too strong, too muscled, and too developed. She isn’t sexy or soft enough, so she gets whittled down. Why WOULDN’T we as a community care about that?”

A reader pointed out there’s also a great discussion over on Camille’s Facebook page where she shared the photo of the cover. Lots of other people in the comment thread (worth reading, for a change, thanks SK for the heads up) shared pretty muscly looking pictures of Camille and most readers of her Facebook page seem outraged that they’ve photoshopped out her abs.

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Who is Camille? The National Post writes,

The world’s newest “Fittest Woman on Earth” is a 25-year-old chemical engineering student from Richelieu, Que. Camille Leblanc-Bazinet placed first at the 2014 Reebok CrossFit Games in Carson, Calif., in the women’s individual competition Sunday. Ms. Leblanc-Bazinet, who is 5-foot-2 and weighs 130 pounds, is a student at the University of Sherbrooke in Quebec and started CrossFit training five years ago. The sport involves a combination of weightlifting, gymnastics and high intensity interval training.

I enjoyed reading an interview with her in Shape magazine on body image issues,

If you watched 2014 Reebok CrossFit Games winner Camille Leblanc-Bazinet snag the title of “fittest woman on Earth” last month, you may be surprised that the sculpted athlete once struggled with body image. “I used to run because I wanted to be skinny, and then I’d eat like crap,” the former gymnast explained about her pre-CrossFit days. “I would always feel miserable about myself, like ‘You’re not pretty enough.’ It was self-destructive.”

……. Now that Leblanc-Bazinet is a pro in the weight room, she holds her head just as high. “If I gain two pounds but I can lift 100 more pounds on my bar, I’m like, ‘Hell yeah,'” she says. “I only want to be fitter, stronger, faster, and healthier, and that’s given me tons of confidence.”

So I don’t think she’ll be too bent out of shape about the cover but the rest of us? I’m with the reddit commentator quoted above. We should celebrate strong, athletic women for their strength. No more Photoshop.

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Cankles, more broken body parts you can feel bad about, or please let’s just stop

tumblr_lj1vy5NkPY1qf0yrao1_400.gifQuite a few of you sent us links to stories about “cankles” and I confess I was loathe to blog about it.

Why? Partly I think we should just ignore this tendency to name unruly body bits such as muffin top, thunder thighs, and camel toe. I’m worried here about body shame and body policing. We give names to these ‘problem areas’ of the female body and then they take on lives of their own. Of course, then others sell us things to solve the problem and the ‘solution’ further advertises the problem and down the spiral goes.

In my case, I knew I had what was then called merely “thick ankles” from a young age. I’m not sure how I first knew. Did relatives remark on my ankles? That seems unlikely. I did have school uniform shoes and I remember in that setting being told I had “sturdy legs.” That later changed to “footballer legs” and “potato knees.” So maybe that’s where my “thick ankle” diagnosis first came from. But as a kid I can’t remember being much concerned. Legs were legs. Later, in my teen, years my body hatred focuses in on thighs. I’m not sure why. I think thighs were trendy at the time. These days it’s all about knees. But not about how they look. I want them to work! Perspectives change.

I like what Fit and Feminist has to say about this stuff in her post, Down with cankles, batwings and muffin tops.

“I still remember the first time I heard someone use the word “cankles,” back in the late 1990s, when this lady I worked was talking shit about a coworker, saying she had “cankles.”  My coworker was a Malden girl to her core – gold jewelry, tracksuits, flawless makeup, Betty Boop tattoo, if you’ve lived in Massachusetts you know what I’m talking about – and I can still remember the way she said, “caaankles.”  The word was so ugly and said with such great personal offense, like how dare Shit-Talked Coworker have ankles that are not discernable from her calves!

Now it seems like these words are ubiquitous, showing up in women’s magazines and on those wretched fashion-critique shows on E!, as if we have all turned into a nation of bratty 12-year-old boys.  Wobbly underarms are batwings, fat that overhangs waistbands are now muffin tops and, my least favorite, FUPA…well, let’s not talk about what that stands for.

This terminology exists for one reason, and that’s to shame women into compliance with bullshit body standards.  The phrases themselves may be silly little metaphors, but the intent behind them is nothing short of cruel.  I’ve had it with these terms, and I hope others feel the same.”

You can about the invention of cankles here and about the rise in cosmetic surgery to fix your “boot bulge” here.

A little while ago I wrote about “bingo wings” and suggested it’s time we moved on.

As with “camel toe” and “muffin top,” I have a radical suggestion. Can we put our collective wit to work elsewhere? I’m pretty sure the source of these names is women’s own shame and self-deprecation. To be honest, I don’t think straight men are much given to witty arm-shaming. So let’s stop with the jokes about women’s bodies.

Oh, and that doesn’t mean we get to start joking about men’s bodies either. I have two sons and I’m not keen to see them share,  any more than they already do, in the culture of naming and shaming body bits.

Maybe we could take our sharp tongues and aim our wit and our shame to the doorsteps of politicians. Just a thought.

This stuff isn’t new. It’s been around for awhile. See Gold’s Gym declares July “Cankles Awareness Month” It’s from 2009!

Between declaring thin eyelashes a “condition” and an awareness month created around “chubby ankles,” it seems that the micromanagement of women’s body parts is becoming so much of a trend that soon, women will begin to hate literally every fiber of their being. This is not to mention that the gym’s campaign is a smack in the face to every awareness month that works towards, you know, saving lives and fighting injustice and stuff. Shame on Gold’s, and on WSJ for actually covering this bullshit as news.

Tina Fey

 

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Modesty and my “angry white pyjamas”

The blog title comes from a wonderful book reviewed here: Two great books about male PhDs, fitness, and obsession. The book is called Angry White Pyjamas and it’s written by Robert Twigger about his time in the Yoshinkan Hombu Dojo.

I started thinking about it again because someone found our blog searching for “Aikido camel toe” and while we’ve blogged about camel toe (see The day I discovered the dreaded camel toe and Further thoughts on camel toe, Barbie crotch) I couldn’t imagine camel toe being an Aikido issue. I never feel so covered up as I do in my Aikido uniform.

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If you are a woman or a man looking for a sport or physical activity in which modest dress is the norm, Aikido is a great choice.

The uniforms come in two styles, lightweight and heavyweight, but the difference isn’t really connected to temperature or season. You can see some examples here.

The heavy robes serve some important purposes. The thick cloth protects your skin from hurting as it’s dragged across the mats. Also, when you’re grabbing someone it’s nice to be able to grab their gi, their uniform, rather than their skin.

In addition to keeping skin off the mats, the uniforms makes it easier, I think, for people, of all genders to touch, to rough
house, and to play together.

I was unsure about my Aikido gi at first but I’ve come to feel very comfortable dressed this way.

The most senior belt levels also wear a hakama.

A hakama is the skirt-like pants that some Aikidoka wear. It is a traditional piece of samurai clothing. The standard gi worn in Aikido as well as in other martial arts such as Judo or Karate was originally underclothes. Wearing it is part of the tradition of (most schools of) Aikido.
The hakama were originally meant to protect a horseman’s legs from brush, etc., — not unlike a cowboy’s leather ‘chaps’. Leather was hard to come by in Japan, so heavy cloth was used instead. After the samurai as a class dismounted and became more like foot-soldiers, they persisted in wearing horseman’s garb because it set them apart and made them easily identifiable.

From Aikido FAQ

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